She was all too familiar with those Lifetime Movies, the one where the woman meets the man of her dreams, falls hopelessly in love and marries him only to later find out that he had not filed for divorce from his previous marriage and is husband and family man to two households. She watched with scorn at the drama and over exaggeration of the gall of the portrayed individuals never ever expecting to be the star of her own, real life, Lifetime Movie.

Luckily for her, however, she had not actually walked down the aisle and he was not actually married but the pain of the discovery that she was not the only one shattered her. She used to always sit and watch the on screen lives of females searching through their partner’s belongings thinking how pathetic they were and how it was their own fault for the discovery they now faced; but as she lay sleepless in bed, the ache in her chest by far surpassed her desire to cast blame. She loved him and she knew he loved her back and even though she was not as expressive as he, she truly cared for him and could not deny that she was the happiest she had been in years.

This discovery was a very hard pill to swallow, one which she would have to cut into pieces before it is fully able to be digested. She remembered how she would berate the women on screen for their inability to ‘leave him’ and start over but now she understood the sheer difficulty involved in an action she once thought was so simple. Now as she lays limply stuck between wanting continuance and the euphoria of this man’s presence in her life and trying to ignore the fact that she will never be the only one; she has realized the truth that experience is the greatest teacher and that ignorance truly is bliss and will assuredly refrain from any form of covert inquiries in the future because she never wants to feel this kind of pain again. She also knows that deep down she will try to erase this discovery from her mind because that is the only way she can move forward since the thought of losing him would surely crush her. She will no longer look down on those women with condescension and pity for now she understands that it is that thing called love that makes people do and endure the craziest of things.